Zaarti

Aadya ki pehli race Sochti hu... Ki nanhe bachhon ki kataar jo khadi hai jeewan ki Pehli race ke liye, Kya in nanhe bachho me spardha ya pratispardha ka bhaaw hota hoga?? Kya wo ye soch kar bhagte honge ki unhein jeetna hai? Kya Baaki ke bachhe ye soch kar udaas hote honge ki koi Aur un se aage jaa nikla Aur jeet Gaya... Kya wo apni haar ki wazah ko Khud mehsoos karte honge... ??? Mera dil kehta hai ki daud ke shuru hone wali lakeer se Pehle ye bache anjaan hote honge jeet, haar, eershya ya pratispardha se. Bas apni sfoorti, apni mad- masti Aur urja se daudte honge...  Fir ek bachha finishing line ko sabse Pehle paar kar jata hoga... Aur taliyaan goonj uthti hongi... Bachha dekhta hoga ki Sab kitne Khush hain... Maa- Baap- shikshak- dost Sab garv se dekh rahe hain... Aur wo bachha jeet ka swaad chakh leta hai. Baki Sab bachhe apni apni shreni ke hisaab se haar, eershya, Dukh, jeetne ki prerna ya dost ki jeet par khushi ka swaad chakh lete hain... Aur kul Mila ke ye unhein un...

Aaine me dekhkar apni hi balaaein le leti hu... Kahin sabko na pata chal jaye ki main to ishq samandar me Bahut gehre me utar aayi hu... aur fir nazar lagte kahaan der lagti hai? Khair... main to ishq samandar me bahut gehre me utar aayi hu... Doobne mein sukoon bhi Bahut hai aur khatra bhi barabar ka hai.

There are times when I m in a conversation on phone & am not able to listen & understand what the person at other end is saying. But to my surprise I can hear that too which is not even said when I m scared. Damn... I m scared. I was off to bed & really sleepy & suddenly my body became very alert & now I can hear the sounds coming from neighbouring buildings too, let apart the sounds coming from flats in our own building. Needless to mention, I have already closed all the doors from inside. I can hear my clocks clicking; tick-tick. Those little drops making their way out from the loose tap then falling on to the floor is waking me up from the just caught up sleep, each time the drop taps the floor. Somebody coughing in the flat above ours, some body moving the furniture in some flat. Some different sounds made by plastic bags, may be pigeons in the vicinity are settling & fluttering around just before calling it a day...But fear hardly understands. Super alert s...

B ade bade shehar, chote chote ghar, in mein rehne wale chote chote pariwaar ya temporary/ permanent roommates. Badi badi companies mein chote chote jobs, badi badi salaries, us se bhi bade bade kharche Aur choti choti bachat. Chota Chota bank balance aur us se chote pal-do-pal, lambe lambe raste Aur unpe khadi bheed. Kitne Sare emotions, par expression ko sirf Sunday. Bahut saara Pyaar par only on ravivaar! Janaab Naye zamane ka Pyaar, weekend wala Pyaar!Wo bhi chadh Gaya aarzuon ki Aanch par. Aadha Gaya roothne me Aur adha Gaya fir naye hafte ki daud ki taiyaari mein... Mauka- e- izhaar nahi aa pata to kya... Ravivaar to zaroor ataa hai, full fledged Pyaar nahi to Kya chote mote trailer to Laata hai... Naye zamane ka Pyaar kabhi rukawat ke liye khed ho jata hai Aur kabhi Kisi ravivaar mukkamal ho jata hai.

Yahaan Kadam Kadam pe mandir - masjid hain, Aur Bhagwan Kahin nahin. Yahaan apne apne Bhagwan se darne wale bhi hain par pyar Karne wale nahin. Har baat ko Sach banane ke liye kasmein khane walo ki bhi kami nahi koi, par Sach bolne Aur vishwas Karne wale hain hi nahin. Sabse jyada kasmein unhi ko khate Dekha hai jo vaayde tak nahi nibhate Aur vaayde nibhane wale kabhi kasmein nahi khate. Rang birangi is duniya ke taur tarike kuch badal se Gaye hain... Nahaa dhokar Bhagwan ko bhog lagane wale ek roti tak nahin dete bhookhe ko. Har dar pe sar jhukane wale parhez nahi karte jhuke saron ko thokar Marne se bhi. Ye kaisa daur aa gya hai... Aur kitni door hum aa Gaye hain... Yahaan ibaadat hoti hai sirf Aadat se na ki Irade se!

Yesterday my SIL shared photos of her self cooked food & it was an over whelming exprience for my FIL who never thought she could cook... i deleberatley asked him... how he feels now that his daughter is settling well into married life & specially started cooking? ( he never was hopeful if she can manage household, before she got married ) He instantly flashed an expression of waaowness or you can say pride... i was happy. Meanwhile i was happy & amazed that my little daughter just 2 months & 3 weeks old took her second vaccination quite easily.... she dint cry much & infact was not even fussy. It was such a proud moment for me. I now realise while just winding all day long thoughts that parents can find pride in their kids for any thing.... just anything...  for my FIL its already a long journey travelled... & for me it has just started... love you my jaan laakriti...

It was a rushy day after a tiring night... At 9:00 am, hastily I ushered to kitchen to find my energetic father in law already mid way the kitchen chores.... cheerfully he asked me "soi na" ( morning conversation between us has very limited lines, it starts with "soi na"; rest shall follow) OK one more thing, this " soi na" has many inferences like; did you sleep well? Did your baby sleep well & in turn could you sleep? So, this is routine with him to ask me if I could catch ample sleep. Further, he will offer me warm water & then his indigenous tea. I really relish my days when they start with tea made by him. .

They say time just flies & they are right. It's no time when it was just a doubt that you are there in me in the most tiny way possible. Then how you & I spent exactly 9 months & a week together. You introduced me to my inner self & I carried you in my womb, to each place I went. In the last week's of your stay in my womb I was becoming desperate to have you in my arms. I wanted to see what God got me to create. Thats you darling. On 17th October, after much wait you were there surprisingly. I m saying surprisingly because I did not have contractions & what I beleive, doctors tricked me to have you caesarian way. Otherwise we would have waited. I was apprehensive, never wanted my belly to be cut in 2 & getting you out abruptly, but then it was the way you were destined to come. I know I had some strange feelings while I was told that they will operate me. I had never been to any hospital before. Maximum extent I fell sick was viral fever or say incess...